ze twiztd mindz of vic-n-mk

2009-03-15T23:23:00.000-07:00

One of those Oprah Moments.

It's been awhile since I've last written. Life has been good to me. I've eaten well and slept enough. Time has always been a bitch to me but nonetheless, I've learnt to tame that bitch well. Throughout my absence here I have learnt quite a bit myself. Learnt to say no. Learnt that patience is virtue. Learnt to be accepting and hoped to be accepted. Learnt that nothing in life comes without consequences. And I've learnt that emotions are not to be fooled around. So what have I truly learnt so far?

I'm thankful fr the 2 weeks off that I'm enjoying currently. My schedule has never been forgiving, so as the escalating expectations from others towards myself. When I was younger I've always had this dream of becoming someone great whenever I've done well in something. That spur of the moment when you dream that the sky is the limit. Those childhood bullshits. If only everything falls into place like how I'd dreamt of it to be. Now I feel like an old sarcastic mean bitch laughing at that 10 year old kid I call myself.

Anyways, today is not about whining at the fact that I'm not genetically gifted. It's something more. Given the luxury of having an imaginary breaktime (notice the use of the word imaginary as it is "there" but it's not "real"), I've indulged myself into a good dose of chicken soup for the soul movies. And we all know that there is nothing better than 4 black women, some of whom were Oscared, coming together to film a beautiful movie about love and struggles in life simply entitled as "Waiting to Exhale". If you're an XY a.k.a not a woman and wondering what the fuck was I talkin about I suggest you leave as I will potentially bore the shit out of you for the next 15 minutes.

I wouldn't elaborate much on the movie though. But I really enjoyed this part of the movie when this black man told Angela Bassett of how he really loved his dying wife more than anything else in the world, and how watching her suffer actually removes a piece of his strength everyday. I can relate this to myself as I was there watching Victor when his dad was dying, how he picked himself up and how he was rebuilding his strength each time it falls apart when he exits the ward. I was there...and yes I was affected as I loved that old man. As cool as I tried to be throughout the process the funeral got the best of me and I actually broke down that evening.
Victor wasn't there though, thank god.

Anyways, the point is.. would you love a person more than anything in the world to stay with them till the end of time? Could you promise forever in their eyes?
There was this part of the movie when Angela Bassett actually told the same man that she once had someone who loved her unconditionally too, only to find him stopped loving after 11 yrs and 2 kids. Love can be very fragile at times. It is always easier for the man to let go, as they are made that way. I once had a guy that had promised forever in my eyes too, only to find him leavin after 3 months. "We shall remain as friends and I would love you even more". Bullshit. A breakup is ugly, whichever way you look at it.

Nevertheless, you will never know if you truly love a person until someday God decides to test you on certain circumstances. I've passed and failed a few of His trials, but alas, I'm just one of His imperfect creatures. I remembered a classic moment when Victor actually asked me if I would stay with him if he had multiple sclerosis, as he was clerking that case back in 2007. I asked him back the same too, and he said yes. I really had no doubts about that, as he had never failed to prove his love to me from the start. He is probably one of the best person I had ever met in my life, not only as a lover, but as a human too. So loving and forgiving in every way possible. For once, this man had made me exhaled in relief after all this time of searching for the right one.

You're truly exceptional, and I mean it. I love you.

2007-09-29T21:48:00.000-07:00

My sunday

Sunday is supposed to be everyone’s favorite. I’m not saying that its not mine. I love Sundays. I love it when my niece chloe woke me up in the mornin so that we could watch Barney together. I know I’m a lil too old for barney but trust me, we did have lots of fun together. She did bring a lot of joy to my fucked up life. Trust me, I do need a lot of strength right now, trying to be someone great with so little talent that I have.

My baby was out for his tea time birthday party in one of his friends house. Im glad that he has activities of his own to keep him occupied. I mean, its great to see him happy and destress, especially when im not there with him. My presence does mean a lot to him I know, and the fact that im not there really bothers me a lot. As good as a girlfriend I can be, I still lack in certain aspects. My absence in this case, is inevitable. Maybe with time when I have enough cash after my part time jobs ill go over and hug him warm, just the way he likes it. In the meanwhile, it will still be an idealistic plan, as money is the main obstacle.

Tomorrow is the most important day of my life in IMU. The extemporaneous dispensing exam. If I screw this I will have to kiss my scholarship good bye. And its very possible that anyone who works as hard as I do to fail the exam. Its all luck. And trust me I really need some this year.

My baby likes to imagine nowadays. I guess that’s the reason he told me how nice it would be if I were to be there with him today. And that I would make him buy a present for tiffany but he will nvr bother to do so now because he is alone. and that it will be nice if I can hug him to sleep every night when he needs someone to cuddle. My baby is a sweet and sensitive guy. That’s the reason I stayed with him so long. I want someone to cuddle too, trust me. and its sweet and sad for him to say that.

Maybe that’s the reason I wrote this piece today. And maybe that’s the reason why I was crying today when u were snoring in ur bed. Extempo + hopes is seriously not a good combination.

-mk-

2007-09-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

Vids frm when v were younger.

hehe.... i can imagine bb being one of the 3 guys there.... suka la tu.. ur "girl" is on tv hehe
oh in case u guys do not know my bb had a big crush on jen love when he was a kute kute hum surp teenage boi... hehehe
sayang bb.... i like this vid alot. i know u do too!

-mk-

2007-09-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

MALAYSIA BOLEH

tiang bendera yang berbonjol...

Ha... kat kawasan kampung pun ada Starbucks tersendiri. Macam2 menu ada termasukla Karamil Makiatu, Cahaya Latti, dan Anggur Perapucino.

Huiyoo... pahlawan jamban

ish ish ish.....

Macam ni ke rupe Airport di Kelantan? :P

elakkan selipar daripada hilang masa sembahyang.

-mk-

2007-09-08T01:39:00.000-07:00

The Various Faces of my BB.

I've decided to pick a few of my favourite photos and share them with everyone.

To be honest i wanna put my own photos but i malu cuz he so kute. Later yeng sueh sai.... hehehehehe

hopefullly we can come out with a photo album of us in the near future. though i know bb hate taking pictures hehe. [ps: u fat mer? no uh.... everyone tht stood beside me will appear fat wakakaka...]

* this is still my favorite. sooo kute.

*haha not cool also

*yer hamsap bb... but still look so kute.

* hehe.. ur friend's mouth so big.

*surprised! so excited for wht the harta not urs also hehehe.

* in the toilet. last time so klean now so dirty yerr..

*hehe. mumumumumu.

*booga... so scary i nearly died.
* *wah, undiscovered malaysian idol. hehe. but my bb seriously can sing one uh.

while i was bz writing tiz funny piece my bb was shitting syokly in his toilet.

ha-hah.

aiyah.... i got pharmaceutics on monday....dengg!!

-mk-

2007-08-18T00:01:00.000-07:00

Sweetest things u say

I therefore quote from you, the source of all my happiness n occasional misery, bbbbbb.

“ most guys go to prostitutes for sex. These prostitutes, they may sleep with several guys in a day or one night. I always wanted to go for one, but not for sex. I just want to bring her out for dinner”

“Some guys look for sex in women. I look for ……..companionship… I dunno… maybe this is not the word for it, but sex is definitely not everything I want in a woman”

“God knew u needed me. that’s y he brought me to u. and you to me. so that we can share our life together. And how he knew that you needed a non abusive guy, and I was there to fill the place. He knew”.

Yeah. he knew. And did the right thing. U complete me bbb.
I love u.

2007-04-13T21:10:00.000-07:00

Wake-up-call

Self explanatory. A wake up call is something that I could really use at times. I mean, I do realise my flaws and strengths from time to time. Not tht im not aware of it. But somehow everything seems a lil bit more fucked up when it’s delivered verbally.

My mom has been a constant influence n inspiration in my life. her strengths have somehow left a mark in my mind of how I would need to achieve that level of understanding and ignorance towards certain issues in life. U might have come to the idea by now tht she's the angel n all those crap. Well I guess u’re wrong bout tht. As inspirational as she may be, she constantly reminded me of how fucked up I am as a young adult. And how I still have a long way to go towards finding a better me.

My baby has been really helpful n understanding about this. He gave me the most realistic and inspirational comments about stuf. But the thing tht touched me the most was the time that he had given me. as well as the patience n heart to do so. Guys don’t do that in general. I guess my guy is different. He has always been different. And I love him so much for that.

It would be an interesting trip. I mean, starting off from zero with no expectations on what you’ll get and where you would end up might b cool. I may grow from this n become smarter. Or maybe just becum more fucked up than ever. Whtever the outcome is, I’ll stick close to what I believe in life. And no one in the world could ever take that away frm me. Never.

-mk-

2007-03-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

One of those sweet moments… mmmm

Hahah… brings back all the guuud memories

SCENE 1:

Mmm… this was taken in kopitiam when me n bb were together for 3 weeks… mmmm its funny how the “blowed” noodle seemed to taste better than the ones in the pot…. Yumyumyum…

SCENE 2:

Hahha… this was when we were on our way to Damansara to meet vic’s kdu frens mmmm… I asked him to show me the 5 lala poses but he malu… hohoho…
Did u really believe me bb when I said I wasn’t takin a vid?..x)

SCENE 3:

Wahhahaha.. now this one klassic. It was not long after vic lost his bet to jeevan aka 2nd best maggi cookah in the world, after me..hehhe. He promised not to smoke for a week but argh….it drove him nuts…… I still remembered joseph’s words to joo bb ..- “ How are you man?”..”What the fuck is wrong with ur hair?..You look hideous man”…hahahah
Joseph.

mmm… need to get a better phone wid better pic resolution..x)

-mk-

2007-03-27T11:14:00.000-07:00

One of those moments

One of those moments when I actually talk to mah inner self

Lecture 101,
Time: dunnolah. Lik I bother
Venue: upper lecture hall corner. Cuz got wall. Can lean back n sleep n not b noticed mauahha.

Indian lecturer: …(boring unheard lecture in almost native tongue language)…….”now., can anyone tell me wht MOA is?

Inner self: ..wht?... BOA’s twin?...knn don’t call me.

Indian lecturer: ….go find out urself ok

…….which states MODE OF ACTION, after lik 2-3 slides after. He didn’t even notice. bodo.

Lecture 102,
Time: 15 min before lunch
Venue: same ol place

Indian lecturer: now now… im gonna pick the one in pink to answer this question

Inner self: … saw?.. the smartest thing I did today was to wear black n look common. U can nvr go wrong by lookin common.

Indian lecturer: … ok u… I changed my mind.

Inner self: stupid fickle minded thosai face.

Lecture 103,

Spanish lecturer: …. You need 18mg of drugs to generate a volume of distriibution of so n so……

Inner self:...........”18 more golden plated wheel to master my skill”

Spanish lecturer:…. Plasma protein binding………..

Inner self:……… make a 2.5 parteh!

Spanish lecturer:……fat depots……

Inner self…….ZzzZzzzzzzzZzzZZ

-mk-

2007-03-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

I ENJOY

I enjoy sitting for exams. The only time when muh brain is not sleepin. Beats boring lectures. And I feel somewhat productive. Thts like the best feelin… ever.!
I enjoy skippin lectures with miki while eating toast in the cafeteria. Its funny, but somehow illegal toasts seem to taste better
I enjoy kissin muh baby. Nothing beast kissing the man u truly love. And of course, he’s a great kisser!...him to edison ANYTIME! Mmmmm
I enjoy tricksterin alone. and getting super kool items. And scamming other bodo with lucky-day necklaces. But trust me im a nice person ahhaha.!
I enjoy tricksterin with muh baby. And when he shows me his whoa-ultra-kool-super-high-level-cun skills. but I hate to go pvp with him cuz I always die. And his frens will always kill me. x(
I enjoy steamboating with pek yee n shwu n drink till our stomach bocor. [tomyam + gastric!!!!]
I enjoy muh skinny-petite-bimbo-specs moments. Makes other girls feel fat…x)
I enjoy putting on coloured mascara n feel different.
I enjoy lookin at other girls wit black mascara after tht…xD..
I enjoy muh random eating of icecream in da middle of the night n go to sleep straight
I enjoy hitting red traffic lights, especially near modern chiliung..no alcohol in this world could give me tht adrenaline kick
I enjoy speeding in kesas n stoppin at the right moments.
I enjoy waking up late n reachin skool early
I enjoy teachin in skool with a bunch of lame, naughty hormonal boys [ ahh just kidding!!]
I enjoy saying “whatever”, whenever I like.
But lastly,
I enjoy being in love!!
Mmm...
-mk-

2007-03-17T04:24:00.001-07:00

fEELin tHirsty?

http://poetry.rotten.com/refreshment/

muahhaha!

-mk-

2007-03-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

Pushed a[side]

.. hmm.. I guess the biggest person u're answerable to is yourself, and wht sets u apart from the other ppl whom u think is better off than you, is initiative. The ability to react and plan appropriately ahead of time makes ur life easier compared to others… and the will to attend every lecture and not fall asleep gives you the privilege of holding ur head up higher compared to those who did not, cuz u earned the pride of doin something right.

And the lack of commitment, has somewhat diverged me from the path I should have followed.

During my 9 months in uni I somewhat realized that learnin is actually quite a consuming process, in terms of mind, time, strength and patience. It somewhat made me more defensive, which is bad. Yeah as much as it sucked and how I always hated ppl who created excuses for themselves just to get away from something I had somewhat being gradually reduced to that. Certainly hope it’s just a phase in my life that I have to go through.

On the other hand I had learnt to appreciate the good things that occur to me. Not having to pay my skool fees has always been the bomb, especially knowin that the dean has increased the fees by 3k and the other noobs have to pay for it [muahahahah!]. I had made great frens in uni whom which I initially thought I wouldn’t. In fact they are much better than my ex frens [lesbians whom which names I refuse to mention]. They are ppl whom which u can safely rely on and help u be a better person, as well as letting u help them in areas in which they lack. It’s a relationship with attached values. Makes me feel like i'm doing something right at times when nothin right has been done.

My love life has been wonderful. Hmmm... Some ppl said that long distance relationships are sucky n problematic but that wasn’t the case between me n vic. As much as he is away from me, his love stays close to me at heart. It will be the bomb when he finally comes back in June, when we will cuddle n sleep in each others arms again...mmmmm.
Till then… ill be waiting patiently with my bear bear…. [my fav bed partner!!]

Being the only scholar in my batch [like... 1 in 120 ppl] do affect me at times. I mean... I can’t even draw anime during lectures in peace, let alone sleep in classes. But I hav adapted to that tho... I mean... at least I hand in my assignments n reports much earlier than the others right? But still it’s a habit I need to change. Guess I have developed tht frm my habits of skippin tuition classes in Form 6 and sleepin in skool. It’s weird that I did not feel guilty back then. Chill nih…. hahaha…….Guess conscience comes with age.

I feel lik a plate of indomee….. anyone?

-mk-

2007-03-09T03:56:00.000-08:00

I need muh icekream!!! T.T

A perfect recipe to go haywire.

- 3 pending reports [with introductions, literature, references n all those shites]

- 1 pending portfolio [which requires me to reproduce literatures n journals written by god - knows who about leukaemia and the various forms of treatment]

- 150 pgs of chemistry notes to translate

- Tonnes of lecture notes to read!!

- My room to clean

- Tuition classes tomorrow

- Plus an emotional heart to comfort due to excessive loss of money as I broke the fuckin viscometer in the lab

- Pharmacology klass test in 2 weeks.

Sounds yummy?

This is just sooo right coz im just soo in the mood for the hols in April – july.
Oh I can actualli smell u now cameron.
mmMmmMm.

Or maybe I just need more serotonins.

-mk-

2007-02-16T07:51:00.000-08:00

my sweetest valentine ...

.... and the only one that made it possibLe is you vic baby.. mMmm... i just got ur gift this evening... and boy was i surprised. mmm... i felt lik a little giRL in front of a christmas present.... so so so so haPpy n mmmmm!

and so i was realli excited to know what was in the box... it was sealed so tightly..[unlike the parceLs that ive sent u baby.. hahaha x)]... so it took me quite awhile to open it... mmm...

nevertheless i took off each layer of cellotape carefully, not to damage the box or anythin inside of it....... and after minutes of workin with my precious piece.... finallly... the moment have come..

it was nicely wrapped in a red lovey lovey wrapper... mmmm... very valentine n romantic.... my heart melted immediately by the sight of the gift.... it was sooo...... sweet..... so so sweet...

**lovey lovey wrappeR!.. haha! x)

so i removed the wrapper carefully... not to damage anythin outside or inside of it [even the wrapper has its values.. cuz its was such a romantic moment in my liFe!.. wanna immortalize every single element in it..hehe] .... and when i saw whts inside.... my heart skipped a beat

**mmm.. the front box

omgomgomgomg...... maybela i saw tht sarah jessica parker perfume in oprah and i was having trouble finding for it in klia...... omg...... my baby baby.... how did u read my mind?

it was sooo........ touching....

i admit i cried a lil... serious..... cuz it was soo sweet...x)...

**mmmm... clean n alluring scent!

to my surprise my baby had given another gift for me........ it was just as sweet n lovely as the first...mmmmm..

* a red coloured love pendant. very detailed art woRk... mmmm.. so lovely!

**mmM.... uhh i feel so happy right now!... hahhah.. hav to weaR!

mmmm...... it's very beautiful baby. oh how can u ever be more romantic than tht?..
uhhhh...

mmm... thanks alot baby... i realli like it....
i know u put alot of heart n money into it... cuz its realli special and sweet.

i love u soo much baby.
and u made me feel lik im being loved soo much too...

-mk-

2007-02-12T03:53:00.000-08:00

THIZ is wht i kall, a dictionaRy.

enjoy.

Diplomat - A person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip.

Optimist - A person who starts taking a bath if he accidentally falls into a river.

Father - A banker provided by nature.

Criminal - A guy no different from the rest...except that he got caught.

Boss - Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early.

Politician - One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after.

Doctor - A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills.

Committee - Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together.

Classic - A book which people praise,but do not read.

Marriage - It's an agreement in which a man loses his bachelor degree and woman gains her master degree.

Worry - Interest paid on trouble before it falls due.

Experience - The name men give to their mistakes.

Tears - The hydraulic force by which masculine power is defeated by feminine power.

Atom Bomb - An invention to end all inventions.

Philosopher - A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead.

Smile - A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

Rumor - News that travels faster than the speed of sound.

Dictionary - The only place where divorce comes before marriage.

College - A place where some pursue learning and others learn pursuing.

Ecstasy - A feeling when you feel you are going to feel a feeling you have never felt before.

Office - A place where you can relax after your strenuous homelife.

Yawn - The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.

-mk-

2007-02-10T21:35:00.000-08:00

WAHAHA. maybelarh they abit oveR.

mmm... saLute the bee kilLerz!!!

http://www.honda-tech.com/zerothread?id=1845064&page=1all

wahaha i wizh muh bro in law iz tht kewL!

-mk-

2007-02-06T02:45:00.000-08:00

[untitled]

“ Patience with others is love. Patience with self is hope.”

I don’t feel lik writing today. x(

Just leave it… empty…. like how im feeling right now.

-mk-

2007-01-25T03:30:00.000-08:00

Y?

Im fuckin broke this month. And its realli getting to me. I mean I hardly write emo posts.. but this is realli too much. I seriously need to find time to juggle between my uni, my 1st job n my 2nd job. In fact, could anyone pls recommend me a 3rd job?.. I am a competent worker.

If u think im crazy ure right. If u think im rich then ure wrong. Y not with 2 jobs u ask?.. Well currently im on a self support basis. I mean… I could be anorexic n starve myself with bread but my baby needs to eat. And her food costs even more thn mine. [1.92 per litre]. I could be lazy but then I would have to bang all the toll poles frm klang all the way to bukit jalil. It aint ur house door u know.. tht fuckin thing needs money to lift up.
If u think im pathetic ure right. as much as I wanna look pretty lik any other girls in uni I cant afford to spend much on clothes. Where is my dad u ask? I seriously think he is dead. He has been rejecting my calls since november. I’m lik his debt collector I guess. He fuckin has no love for me and im numbed.

Sometimes I wish I was born into a rich family. At least I don’t have to worry bout all this. I’m thankful for the scholarship I have and I realli owe IMU a big time. Lookin at my other rich frens who chose to waste their life annoys me. I mean.. how hard can it be?.. Wakin up in the mornin, eat, study, sleep. The only “difficult” task they are required to do is study. How hard can tht be? And yet they chose to screw their life up by being a lesbian, cohabitating, etcetc. Im not being judgmental. Im just being realistic.

And I hate the fact tht I have to embarrass myself to save a couple of bucks frm the traffic jerks. I’m so angry at myself now. But I have no one to tell.

-mk-

2007-01-25T03:15:00.001-08:00

ME, THE POLICE STATION, AND A BUNCH OF TRAFFIC JERKS.

2007 has been a fucked up year for me. I mean, nothin has been goin on smoothly since my first day of uni. For instance, I have been in n out of the police station for 4 times for the past 2 months. I know it sounds crazy. Believe me, im still shocked.

I think by now visitin the trafffic station is part of my routine [choi!]. I mean, I even know the rates for most of the crimes and where to n how much will it be for each report, photo.. etcetc. I even know the names of the officers now. Speakin of the officers… I have a lot to tell.

Scene 1: When I was summoned for reckless parkin
[me = mk, TJ = traffic jerk]

Me: ..mmm… berapa ah cik [buat bodo.. cz already written]

TJ: hahah…mmm…. Berapala moi mau?

Me: hahah… berapa ah.. tak payah bayar looo..

TJ: ehhh… mana boleh moi?.. nanti abang takde duit makan

Me: boleh la bang… aku student saja… mana ada duit?

TJ:.larh.. abang pun kesian pd moi… sayang pada moi… tapi kena jugak bayar..

Me: aijo… moi takde banyak duit la.. suda kering ini bulan..

TJ: alarh… suruh la boifren bayar… moi kan cantik mesti banyak boifren

Me: haha boifren miskin la… tak cantik la takde boifren

Me: 20 saja la bang.. boleh laaaa…

TJ: mm.. 30 la moi.. ini abang dah keluar resit

Me: haha bolehla….

TJ: bila free ajak abang keluar ye…. Heheh

* I felt lik vomitting. Saved 70 bucks tho.

Scene 2: When I hit sum vios bumper in NKVE

Me: so macamana cik? [buat bodo.. again]

TJ: mmm… macammana?.. 300 la moi bayar…

Me: harh?.. takde duit la cik… discount la sikit student saja

TJ: larh.. ini bang bagi 250… dah baik ni..

Me: masih mahal la bang… nih betul dah kering

TJ: mmm moi nih…suruhla pak we bayar…..moi cute la… sudah ade boifren?

Me: haha.. alarh.. kalau dah bayar bang takde duit makan laa..

TJ: takpe… moi suka makan apa?..bah kut teh yea?.. bang belanja laa..

Me: ahha bang mana boleh makan?..lawak betul

TJ: moi makan la bang tengok.. lepas tuu bang bayar…

TJ: 200 la .. nih bang dah final price..

Me: tak mau la.. 150..betul dah kering nih..

TJ: ahh moi nih… susah tul nak layan.. okla..

*sudahpun immune…

Scene 3: When I randomly made an offense in jalan saga.. I DUN EVEN KNOW WHERE THE FUCK IS JALAN SAGA.! N whut I did?! They just gave me a code of offense.

Me: hello… berapa kompaun?

TJ: mmm.. hah moi nih dah tau pun nak tanya,… 300 la..

Me: [pretend to b surprised] wah!!.. mahalnye… takde duit la

TJ: moi nih… betul takde duit?..kesian bang tengok

Me: discount la bang… next time moi lebih berhati…

TJ: betul ke nih?.. dah boifren ke belum?

Me: haha dah kahwin..

TJ: hehe tipu la moi… masih muda lagi…bila nak keluar ngan bang..?

Me: haha mak marah la….

TJ:.. tipu la tuu.. nih bang kasi 70… puas?

Me: mahal la bang…. 50 cukup la..

TJ: haha… mm… bolehla.. bila dah free nanti kall abang yea…?

Me: ahha bye

I am seriously broke after all this.. and I need another job. A third job.

2007-01-24T07:53:00.000-08:00

ISN’T LIFE WEIRD?

MMmmMm… its simple if u wanna know whether u have given your heart to someone. For sum reasons u would lik to imagine all the other possible events that might have taken place b4 u 2 actually met one another. I mean.. look, I might have met this boy in sum random mcd in klang sum 16 yrs ago, not knowing tht sum day he might touch my heart, and vice versa.

I mean… aww…isnt he adorable?.. my handsome lil vic!

Hey, if I’m five with raging hormones I would have asked him out for a date!

And there’s also the eVeR sexy mk haha [jst jk!]..

got garfield cake sumore... classic..x)

fuiyorh..maybe la im in a HOT little red cheongsam. ON LA!

Mmm…. Isn’t this weird..?... tht both of us were once total strangers?

2007-01-13T03:41:00.000-08:00

OMG. this is so tRuE.

ahahah.. i think if anybody were to rasa this it would be victor. cuz his frens ARE so LIke THat. [refering to the modern fellas]. haha...mmm... enjoy

FAKE FRiENDS: Never ask u for food.
REAl FRiENDS: will pau ur food

FAKE FRiENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAl FRiENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"

FAKE FRiENDS: never seen you cry.
REAl FRiENDS: cry with you

FAKE FRiENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAl FRiENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FAKE FRiENDS: know a few things about you.
REAl FRiENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.[joel]

FAKE FRiENDS: Will offer u cigarettes n smile
REAl FRiENDS: Will pau ur cigs even if u threathen to kill.

FAKE FRiENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAl FRiENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FAKE FRiENDS: Are for awhile.
REAl FRiENDS: Are for life.

-mk-

2007-01-12T01:48:00.000-08:00

AIYO...WHY LA WHY

I think I went to a joker’s supermarket tht day… either tht or im drunk… anyways… good luck to this idiot if he is plannin to make money frm his kedai…. For sum reasons my mom enjoys buying stuffs frm this idiot shop coz they sell cheap cookin oil. and im eating my mom’s food. No wonder I’m becumin more n more bodoh.. stupid shop..

this shop champion i tell joo... just look at the things they sell..

omg.. wash n wear n ur cb confirm rot....

Aiyo….. how u gonna shoot the balls I tell u?.. sum joker would sneeze and all the balls wud fly .…. Mini pool…I bet jeevan has one at home.

DEI…over la….. I dunno wanna laugh or cry when I saw this.

wahhaha... shit now i feel lik eatin maggi...
MmmMmMm..

-mk-

2007-01-06T12:01:00.000-08:00

RPG is addictive.

Yeah. It is. Me n victor would be a perfect example. For the last 3 weeks i've been playing this online game kalled trickster online. [anyone interested could d/load this game at www.tricksteronline.com.] It’s like ragnarok..go check out the website for details if ure interested haha.. Well on average I wud spend around 5 hrs playin it.. My baby?...omg.. I dare not imagine.

For his current lvl [which I presume would be 150 sumthin by now..] its godlike to have a tm experience lvl of 123… so konfirm he hardcore. And he nvr fails to surprise me with super kool new equipments. SUPER KOOL. Makes me feel lik a noob at times. Mmm.. that’s my baby!!

Ppl who know me knows I’m an anime person. The dressing.. the characters.. ohh…!..which explains why I lurve my kinky skool skirt so much! Recently i’ve created an additional character for Trickster. My new born baby…Junsa(officer) takizawa

[before colour is mounted, pencil sketch]

Age: 21
Occupation: military police
Type: sense

She’s a flying fox btw. mmmm…

If only they accept new characters into the story…

2007-01-01T10:03:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year BB!!!
MMM... i miss you already.

2006-12-08T03:01:00.000-08:00

hi, im lookin for a true lover.

but firstly,

could u bear watchin his unhealthy ways?
watch him test ur hopes n believes when u nearly had none?
care for him unconditionally when he doesnt giv a fuck?
love him wholeheartedly even if he was bedridden his whole life?
exchange ur love for feelings of worthlessness in return?
love him even when he was stupid dumb n lazy?
help him find his way when he was lost, n empty, n sad?
stay with him even when he doesnt promise u a rich future?

are u then, a true lover?

i know i am.

i love u victor.
even if u are/were/wud be, the most fucked up bastard u could ever be
i'll love u
i will

-mk-

2006-12-07T12:45:00.001-08:00

We had our first official fight today

2006-12-03T10:16:00.000-08:00

WRONG/RIGHT?

Uh im supposed to be at the time of my life now. Holidays. All muh frens are back frm aust. Jenging most of the time [when im not workin tht is]. but still… I miss form 6!!. So so so much still. Damn I realli shud get over it. Fuckin rid it..but uhhh!!!

I miss goin xtremely late for chem tuition n leave 15 mins after klass
I miss sittin for 3 hrs chemistry 900/2
I miss chillin with lui n mark!
I miss writin fucks in paper 2’s
I miss chillin with yeepeks in girls toilet
I miss skippin tuition fer movies
I miss my mornin breakfasts frm juniors in Form 4
I miss stupid MUET krappin lessons.
I miss skippin math klasses n chill in canteen
I miss being tie-less in assemblies n being caught by prefects.

Gosh… im so old..

-mk-

2006-11-28T09:52:00.000-08:00

RANDOM SHITES.

Random shite no 1. [ sPring kLeanin! ]

Haha since its my holidayz ive decided to giv muh pig sty room sum kleanin n klearin up.HAH!.. As usual, u’ll find a lot of weird n random stuffs as u go.

For example, WHAT THE fck was i thinkin bout?

Wht the hell was yvonne doin anyway? This is sick. oh yeah I was 16 btw. PURE mgsian. Biasalarh.. we gurls knoe how to hve fun.!! Damn I miss skewl.

Random shite no 2: [ streets of klang ]

I was near KP ( klang parade) the other day. For sum weird reason I wanted to watch chow sing chi dvd dem badly so ive decided to get em in kp. [they sell realli good quality dvd’s in kp btw]. so AS USUAL I’ll just park tepi jalan lik sum paria aunty to save one buck.

So off I go, grabbed lik 10 dvd’s, pringles n chao. As I was walkin, saw a piez of white paper on my windscreen, under the wiper. Tiu. Time to pay for my parianess

And when I said tht I meant it literally

Nxt day, pegi balai trafik. At first I tot “maybela 50 or wht eni”.. so I remained chill on the way to the counter. Sekali the fella said 100. Dei!!
Jkasbhdkjasfahf

i'm tellin u.. 3 things crossed my mind at tht time
a) dun siau I wont pay 100
b) I dun have 100
c) u die la I pay u 100

haha. So I gave the officer a taste of my loyar buruk skills. U wud hve guessed it anyway.
Its either im realli in luck or im realli good, coz u know wht?

It works.. ngek ngek ngek!

-mk-

2006-11-25T13:13:00.000-08:00

VICTORACISM.

I guess its in the genes. First his dad. Then vic. When asked he simply said its was his job to slay indians as the man of the family. And that his dad wud be proud of him. DEI!!
Anyways he takes back everything he said.

Some of his renowned phrases are

1. indians can never be space men coz in space, ppl can only see u and not hear u. bad choice to pick indians as astronauts.

2. when there are 15 indians in the room searchin for a key, they must be in jail

3. u can never trust 2 person. A) politician. B) indians

4. indians that goes to PD with u will never pay u although they promised to

5. indians usually lik chocolate cakes

6. indians will pao ur laptop in modern

and he goes to jeevan’s house for deepavali only to pao his KOKO KRUNCH. No muruku no thosai nothing Indian is eaten.

Note frm jeevan: im goin to kill victor when he comes home. He wait n c

Dei.. baby I suggest u start praising indians instead hehe.

-mk-

2006-11-22T23:39:00.000-08:00

1.30 am

I guess u own more of ur life as u grow. Over these years I’ve let a rather empty n solitary life. At first it was good but it comes to an extent where u just grew sick of it n wanted a companion, someone to love n be loved. I guess my prayers were answered when god gave me victor. Not that we are living the absolute real life fairytale but it was all good. There were some elements of it however, when Cinderella left her prince behind after 12, mine, 3 months after. But instead of leaving me with a glass shoe, he left me with memories. Touching memories. So much that everytime I watch another love story on TV, tears come streaming down my cheeks

I guess its even harder now, to walk the solitary road alone, the path that u have left behind, after tasting what real love is like. Knowing that sacrifice is the remaining element of our story, it grows tougher alongside my personal battle of depression.

I guess strength signifies love, at times. When u decide not to tell n complicate ur loved ones with ur personal battles. When u bury ur uttermost fears n sadness within u. When u put on a smile despite ur broken self. It takes a lot of courage n strength to achieve that, and I’m workin hard on it.

Now that im 8 hours away from my genetics exam I better fuckin start revising or else.
x)

-mk-

2006-11-22T06:58:00.000-08:00

Biological science
General chemistry
Pharmaceutical organic chemistry
Human biology
Pharmaceutical genetics

3 down. 2 to go. Blah!...
Anyways, lets talk bout sumthin interesting

Well I kinda found this list in sum women’s mag. U can do self evaluation if u want. Maybe u are one afterall

Few signs of guys who think they are relatively good lookin compared to the rest.

01. They carry a mirror n credit card in their wallet. And they use the mirror more than the credit card itself

02. Whenever they pass by any objects that would reflect their image, they cant help but look

03. If there are girls around, they would peep at them. No not that girls are hot, they are curious if the girls noticed their hensem face

04. At least 2 out of 10 loves to wear tight PVC’s. For some ass showin reason or whtsoever

05. They spend AT LEAST 30 mins spiking their hair

06. Oh yea.. girls especially hate them coz most of them are actually NOT THAT GOOD LOOKIN.

-mk-

2006-11-21T00:45:00.001-08:00

100 mg

It was an hour ago when u were here
When it was dark
and when I tried hard to gaze at ur beautiful smile
With my blurry eyes
I could have sworn it was u
Or was it the loneliness in me
That wanted to.

U talked to me, like u used to
Smoked at me, like u used to
Could it be tht it was you?
The man that I loved
Or the many effects
Of the overdosed?

U stared at me for the last time
Stroked my face for the last time
As ur shadows fade my eyes water
At the chemical mirage I tot will never

As I persevered for the non-existence
Played upon me by faulty receptors
I took my last fairy
An anonymous circle of 100mg
A noble assassin of my loneliness
To bring u back
so u would talk to me again, like u used to
Smoke to me again, like u used to.

-mk-

2006-11-20T05:55:00.000-08:00

5 THINGS

5 things I wanna do when my baby is back

1. Hug him to sleep
2. Cook him a nice warm dinner
3. Giv him a warm kiss every morning
4. Bring him to vacation (a nice romantic place wit loads of laziness n nice mum mum)
5. watch him play dota n do the impossible while I noob beside

5 things I wanna do when my GTL’s are back

1. Selva. The holy place of GTL. I knoe emm n ryl dem gilakan the ayam merah now
2. Lepak in mamak until the ane halau us
3. Yak yak yak yak all nite in someones bedroom about paria guys.
4. Vacation la… omg anywhere also can… asalkan cheap, got food n lawak [pekyee]
5. Pasar malam with lai lee chen aka manda. Wahahha tart unkle still remember?

5 things I wanna do if I ever get to teach again

1. Confirm I want back 4 yakin, 4 cergas n 4 gigih!!
2. Chemistry is still my passion
3. Kick mong in his balls
4. I LOVE Monday perhimpunan..[coz sit down, do nothing n sumtimes the boys r dem lawak.. n above all still get paid!]
5. Bring more jellies, n hershey’s for well behaved boys. Hahahah!

-mk-

2006-11-17T11:49:00.000-08:00

the good, the bad, and the ugly

There u hve it. My personal opinion on the five, best dressed men in the business
(ascending order)

The good

5. Jude law (in alfie)
4. Edison chen (no it has nothing to do with how he look!)
3. The models of topshop.
2. David beckham
1. Justin timberlake. (the recent jt tht is)

The bad

5. homer simpson (I wonder if marge ever washed his clothes)
4. marilyn manson
3. snoop dogg (ugly shirt, ugly hair, everything ugly)
2. Austin powers himself
1. Fat bastard of Austin powers

The ugly

5. ah bengs of genting highlands
4. ah bengs of klang parade
3. my dad
2. Elton john.
1. mr mong of smk acs klang

Dei.. no offence.

-mk-

2006-11-15T09:36:00.000-08:00

16, 20, 21

When u were/are 16: -

- For sure u will have a crush in tuition.
- U only got 10 bucks a week.. but somehow u still survive.
- Watchin hamtai makes u feel like a man.
- U wish there were better lookin teachers in the skool
- U luv to kap lui but no balls to kau lui
- The only place u hang out is mamak
- Ur gf don’t love u for ur money, probably for how u look/talent
- Mamak is the only place u can afford to dine ur babygirl
- If u have an ipod ppl worship u lik god in skool
- IU days are probably the most happenin event u’ve been to
- U think smoking is kool
- U want to smoke but scat ur mom kill
- U spend 80% of ur time on the internet
- U go to jj with ur frens to hve fun
- U wonder why god kreated addmaths

When u were/are 20

- Ure too tired for hamtai. Rather watch house, csi, nip/tuck or a fuckin good movie
- U go to jj ONLY to watch movie
- “ Subang ah?.. mai la.. near near klang drink only la”..Sudahpun jadi malas
- For sure uve survived a major car accident
- Dunhill besar sudahpun menjadi sebahagian daripada menu [guys]
- If ure a girl n u r single, u think of buying a spinster house to hate men
- u think and u seriously are a lazy shite
- ur parents still wait for u at the door to tiu u when ure back
- u still feel lik hitting the klubs

when u are 21

- u don’t hit the klubs as much anymore, now tht ure LEGAL
- ure so tired of the hot sluts in college u just wanna find a simple girl to love
- dunhill besar masih sebahagian daripada menu
- watchin hamtai makes u feel lik a loser coz ure still single
- u may go to a mamak for the food and not the company
- ur parents gave up on tiuing u for comin back late
- u rather rot at home n watch a good show.

-mk-

2006-11-15T07:19:00.000-08:00

Time: 3.15pm Ireland

I just got myself involved in a physiology experiment which i'm beginning to regret. It involves drinking 1 litre++ of water and collecting your urine samples for 3 hours. I can't leave the lab cause the container is in the lab and i'm bored and my bladder keeps feeling like it's going to explode. this sucks. btw if you're wondering what the test is for, it's to calculate your Glomerular Filtration Rate. usually done in hospitals for 24 hours if you're facing kidney problems. Don't worry, i'm not tryin to show off or anything with these medical terms! OMFGWTFBBQ! I probably don't know what the start or cryptology or astrophysics or literature is. I'm just trying to say that i feel really bored. and MSN is inoperable on this computer. lrdkgmnldjeioebhitrnbui.

-victor-

2006-11-14T13:31:00.000-08:00

If your girl leaves you, you always know that you'll never go wrong again with a just a good ol pint of BEER. Mmmmm...
In response to the banana thing :P

17 Reasons why BEER is better than WOMEN

1. Beer stains wash out.
2. You don't have to wine and dine beer.
3. When your beer goes flat, you toss it out.
4. A beer doesn't get jealous when you grab another beer.
5. Hangovers go away.
6. Beer never has a headache.
7. You don't have to drive a beer home in the morning.
8. A beer won't get upset if you come home with another beer.
9. If you pour a beer right, you'll always get good head.
10. A beer always goes down easy.
11. You can have more than one beer in a night and not feel guilty.
12. You can share a beer with your friends.
13. You always know you're the first one to pop a beer.
14. Beer is always wet.
15. Beer doesn't demand equality.
16. A beer doesn't care when you come.
17. You don't have to wash a beer before it tastes good.

2006-11-14T07:57:00.000-08:00

PISANG, DAN KEBAIKAN MEMAKAN PISANG.

DEI.. BM AKU SUDAH KARAT]

now.. if ur gf decides to leave u or turn u down for a banana..u can come to me.. i giv u beer.

and hamtai maybe..x)

-mk-

2006-11-13T07:13:00.000-08:00

SOME OF THE FUNNIEST THINGS I HEARD LAST WEEK:-

Haha.. this is one jeng week. And maybela im 7 days frm my EOS [end of semester exam]. I promise I’ll stop one day. Not now haha.

Case 1:

Pek yee: dei.. stop curi-ing my satay. Bodo go buy urself kedekut gila.

Mk: aiyah... bayar u next hayat...

Pek yee: bodo, how much is one satay?.. I gave that guy 4 bucks he gave me 6 satay. [look who’s the bodo now]

Mk: woih.. got nasi right?.. I mean y would the guy actually bring trouble to himself by charging some super hard to count number on his satay [ 4÷6 = 0.666666666667 ]

Pek yee: yahorh

Cis..

Case 2:

Victor: shit there’s a small mouse in my room

Victor : its been running around in the house

Mk: Hahah so kute.. mickey n victor

Victor: Yeah.. it’s a kute small mouse.

Victor: Not the big one..like a pet size only

Mk: mmm.. maybe he wants to be ur fren baby

Victor: no.. wht if he eats my h/w?

Mk: hahaha.. u better sleep with ur clothes on..

Mk: later he bite bite u

Victor: gonna buy rat poison n poison tht muthafucker.

Can u not kall a rat kute one minute and muthafucker the next?
Hahahaha

Case 3:

Reynard: maybela im trying to get porn n tht old Indian guy with an umbrella is peeping me frm the side

And the noob-est question I’ve asked?

Mk: Dei I tot tht Chinese guy only sell Chinese porn.. I mean… later they speak in chinese all u where can faham? haha ..he sell Indian porn also ah? [ I don’t watch so I dunno wht they sell in the market]

Reynard: haha.. got mat salleh one rite? Dei..

For tht one moment I felt lik a racist. Damn

At the same time… Joel was telling me his porn buying experience in Summit.

Joel: Excuse me, do u sell porn here? [in a super polite English accent]

Porn man : Hah?!

Joel: umm..excuse me, do u sell porn here? [in a super polite English accent]

Porn man : mat yea? [what in Cantonese]

Joel: u ada jual itu ka?

Porn man : Hah?!

Joel: ham tai yao mou?

Porn man: hah?!

Joel: ham tai unkle.. ham tai

Porn man: hah?!

Joel: ..* pushes his fake breast back n forth to porn man.. with hamsap expression on his face*

Porn man: OHHH…

Dei?!... this is just wrong.

-mk-

2006-11-10T13:06:00.000-08:00

REMEMBER?

Remember when we had our first date. When we were both shy and excited bout meeting each other?
Remember Da Vinci code? The first movie that we had together?
Remember how we used to have instant noodles at the back alley?
And how I cried in ur arms when I knew we wouldn’t be seeing each other forever?
Remember how it feels lik when I first hugged u when u taught me how to play dota?
And how I would still be a noob and u would be patient with me?
Remember when we spent our first night together?
And when u placed tht necklace around me?
Do u still remember that spaghetti I’ve made u?
And the meal tht u’ve made me during our anniversary?
Do u still remember how dark it was..
When u hugged me behind the streets in subang?
And how I would wet ur shirt
With my tears
When I was counting down the days u’ll be with me
In ur arms?
Do u still remember?
When u taught me how to dance.
And hugged me the whole night.
Although I’ve made a fool out of u
Do u still remember?
When I gave u that ugly kard I’ve made u
And u would give me the sweetest smile on ur face
The same smile that made me fell in love with u
All over again
Like it was just yesterday that I’ve met u
When we were still shy and excited bout each other

Do u remember?

Please say u do
Cos my memories r slowly fading away.
with my tears

-mk-

2006-11-10T06:59:00.000-08:00

BLUEBERRY CHEEZE CAKE.
feat. victor ong, jeevan, half of joel, n joshua's unseen face.

hahahha.. some of the good ol times we had in bkt tinggi.. still remember tht time they were showing some malay show on tv3.. with some really hot malay chics cat-fightin... hahah... my baby seem to enjoy tht so much hahaha.x)
enjoy man.

-mk-

2006-11-09T11:50:00.000-08:00

Perhaps baby, you could sell them to me. I would say that it's probably due to the fact that everyone knows now that they sell drugs like cocaine and heroine for more than 500x it's original price. I dunno. But i'd prefer if the whole world was on weed. then there probably wouldn't be road accidents. alcohol causes seizures btw. you're still my pharmacist. no one is going to take you from me. my make up artist pharmacy baby. muahs

victor

2006-11-09T11:45:00.000-08:00

weird stuff i did/saw this week

1. I didn't see jeevan OR joel
2. I didn't play trickster online
3. I beat mk in pool. muahahahahaha
4. My webcam finally has a use.
5. I stared at a black screen of mk's room
6. Noticed the basal ganglia, limbic system and that the hippocampus and hypothalamus were different
7. Didn't play DotA.
8. Cooked chicken with a diferent style and different sauce but it still tasted like last week.

victor

2006-11-09T07:02:00.000-08:00

MAYBE ITS ME LAH.

sometimes i just dont understand. whts with everyone shooting me with the same ol shit each time i told them wht i do. "wah.. u study pharmacy ah... so next time u can sell heroine/ morphine back door ma... wah u syok la gonna earn alot of money oh.. etcetc"

"yeah man. im so gonna fuckin sell it to ur kids when i graduate".

this is a good example, of how humans today are kreated to only think of themselves n not the community as a whole.

-mk-

2006-11-08T23:57:00.000-08:00

weird stuffs i did/saw this week.

I guess some ppl never learn. me tht is. as usual i had my ABC pants on n i went to a nearby shop to get my prepaid kard. guess wht? i saw a kid with the same pants, but his one yellow colour hahaha. now wht was weird was tht this was the second time it occured to me this month
mmm.. i saw an indian guy with thick heavy moustache tht looked exactly lik my fren jeevan. i swore it could have been his twin!
i drove out ith a car license. FINALLY I REMEMBERED
i found a new use to my webcam.. thiz is just wrong
i ate 2 packs of maggi n 1 piece of cheese cake n lost 1 kg, omfg. there goes my weight gain plan
my baby beat me in pool!!!!!! man i think im becoming a noob la hhehehe

-mk-

2006-11-07T13:25:00.000-08:00

BORAT THE MOVIE

if u find this amusing.. watch the real thing.. omfg . x)

2006-11-06T07:21:00.000-08:00

Chicken is good. and so is my baby. i mean not to compare my gf to chickens. it would just be unfair. it's just that i want to get my point through that i like chickens and that i happen to think a lot about her nowadays. it's hard living alone. still is. perhaps someday i'll be a man. right now, i'm just confused and tis be troubled times. i'm just lazy. just today. maybe cause it's a monday and i had to shower in cold water this morning for the third time. akfjvbdgjdkgbdkrhglreoihg. sorry. had to get it out of my system. i hate it when you have to wake up and face true reality where everyone only does what would benefit them and disregard helping others. they could be sweet one day and be total shitholes the next. do i fill their boredom? or perhaps i make others feel good and fulfill their yearly quota of good deeds. whatever it be i am NOT interested. i think it's about time i think only about myself. and see how the others around me suffer, crumble and burn. but then again, i would only end up being like them. what bollocks. what would my dad do? he'd probably ask me to just ignore them. perhaps i should try that first then kill everyone later. and NO. i do NOT want to talk about it. it's my first post afterall. and it just sounds like starting something with a bang.
p.s.: i'm not psycho

2006-11-03T05:59:00.000-08:00

-I REMEMBER-

remembrance builds a little pathway
that menders through my heart
a beautiful gentle trail
that makes u stand apart

off all the memories i hold close n dear
you're quite the very best
and if you ask me why, i'd say
"you're different from the rest"

i know you'll always be
forever close to me
and in my torn heart, your face
will always hold a special place

everytime i feel depressed
everytime i feel oppressed
in my troubles and in my trials
comfort comes from all your smiles

we did countless things together
and thought we could go on forever
living life to it's fullest
wishing time would lose it's selfishness

please do tell me the reason
don't stay away
why i think of you each day?
why i seem to feel this way?

thinking through i now surmise
it's just that i love u, ..........surprise surprise

-victor ong, 02-

i wonder who he is writing this to....mmmm x)

-mk-

2006-10-31T07:42:00.000-08:00

n i felt i have done nothing at all.. the stupid marieb book is so fuckin thick. like yellow pages or sumthin. and tht is only human bio. our body can be such a bitch to study at times. it can take u the whole damn day just to fuckin read human immune syst. even brownies dont make me happy. and im love deprived. more of touch deprived i guess. how bad can tht be. i seriously wanna quit bloggin but my fingers wont stop. its as if my limbic syst is goin against my concious control. how? i could c myself goin thru this shit for the next 4 yrs. doin sumthin i hate fer the next 7 years n end up miserable till i retire. mmm... maybe i need a vanilla icecream or sumthin. this is just sick.

2006-10-29T08:05:00.000-08:00

yeah ure rite the hantu was me. it was 1015 in the mornin b4 i heard my alarm go.."too...". From my v3 that is.not for waking me up [for heavens sake its my study break]..more of reminding me tht there was a pending msg in my hp. it was frm my hunny. mmmm...well u know who tht is if ure in here!!.. well i could have momentumed n called him using my hse line but it would be insanely expensive...my baby is not living in sentosa btw...mmm.. maybe a few thousand kilometres further in a place where they eat chips to survive..so wht i did was i momentumly drove to the nearest 7-11 in my ABC pants n super super ugly pair of eyes [fckin swollen lik fishballs] to get a 30 bcuks italk kard. well lookin at my current status now it doesnt tke a financial analyst to tell me how broke i am. maybela after this im left with 50 bucks to survive for the next 5 days. n zero credit in my hp [which i then dont give two fucks bout coz i hardly contact anyone now. no im not an antisocial.ull know la when u get older].. and yea tht hp shop ah beng gave me tht shocked face n asked.. " hami tai chi?" nonono.. im not goin to rob u u fat b*tch.. i just wanna buy some credit for my baby. so i asked him which was the cheapest plan he could offer, despite lookin n smellin bad, n he was helpful. one knowledgable beng in short. after a bunch of nonsense we came back to the same place we started. i talk. i seriously felt lik smackin him but since he was nice enuff to layan this piece of shit [me] i was nice to him. so off me go in muh semi damaged kelisa back to my hse. where i called my baby but guess wht... he was sleepin...mmmm.. but it was the effort tht mattered. makes me realise tht i would do anythin for my baby. even if i had to embarass myself in the public [not so kua cheong la.. maybe one unkle tht probably dont give 2 fucks bout me, a 5 yr old girl, and a fat beng]

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